Music restoreth my soul

Over summer I went to church, along with a hundred or so others of my flock.

Round stained glass window depicting a saint, tying music to religion

We went to worship at the shrine of Franz Schubert, a nineteenth century German composer with a gift for putting music to already profound texts and rendering them close to sacred. 

Listening to music is the closest thing to a religious experience I am ever likely to have. Every year in January, I go on a kind of noisy annual retreat; the kind that lets you talk, eat, drink and laugh as much as you like. But most of all listen. I head for the Mornington Peninsula for two weeks of classical music in a coastal holiday setting amidst grapevines, tea-tree and eucalypts.

Birdsong and baroque music fill my days.

When I’m not sitting in an audience listening to music, I’m sitting on a verandah writing about it. I have given a lot of thought to the effect of music on my happiness. Research tells us that listening to music can deliver chemical rewards in the brain equivalent to almost any other activity, including sex.

Looking through a window to a table with a laptop and beyond that a view of rolling hills as I write about music

One balmy evening, I sat on a deck chair under a marquee listening to soprano Sara Macliver singing ‘Lascia ch’io pianga’ (‘Let me weep’) from Handel’s opera Rinaldo. I never fail to follow its instructions and Saturday night was no exception. I sat in the blessed darkness of dusk in a pool of tears. But not misery. Quite the opposite. I felt raised up, ennobled, cleansed somehow. I gathered myself and my picnic basket together and hurried back to my holiday rental to play it over and over and wallow in the endorphins.

Mache dich, mein Herze, rein’ (‘Make thyself clean, my heart’) from JS Bach’s St Matthew Passion has a similar effect on me, although not so much in the waterworks department. It makes me raise my arms like an elderly ballerina and twirl slowly around the living room. Not knowing what the words mean doesn’t diminish the music’s resonance, but looking up the translation tells me it is indeed a sad song, sung shortly after Jesus’ death on the cross. It almost makes me wish I believed in the story of the resurrection.

Woman with her back to the camera  and her arms raised like a ballerina, dancing to music
Elderly ballerina

But I don’t.

Somehow religion passed my family by altogether.

I’m neither for it nor against it (unless it’s the impetus for acts of violence by religious extremists). But when I listen to the first movement of CPE Bach’s Concerto pour flute en ré mineur, I’ve got the spirit of something in me, filling me with goodwill towards my fellowman. With the possible exception of those religious extremists I mentioned earlier.

That summer Sunday’s musical program at the seaside church concluded with Schubert’s An Die Musik, written to express his thanks and love for the art of music. Often called his ode to music, it was a kind of prayer of thanksgiving; a fitting and joyous ending to a celebration of music in this sacred space. And one for which I am eternally grateful. For ever and ever. Amen.

This story was first published in The Sunday Age on January 20 2019.

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